After being so reliant on yourself there’s a point where we fall and sometimes, we fall and we fall hard. We fall so hard that we are unsure if we can pick ourselves back up again. There’s one person that I always look to when I feel like I’m back at this point: Job. I’m sorry to my people who don’t write in their Bible, but this is one of the most annotated books that I have. Whenever, I feel my whole world is falling apart or even worse, that God is not there listening to me, this book has truly been healing for me.
Now everyone essentially knows this story about Job. Job, one of God’s favored servants was tested by the Devil. Now sometimes we would wonder why God would allow us to be tested and why he would let us fall. He tells us that he won’t give us any more than we can carry right?? But we always tend to misread 1 Corinthians 10:13. I went for the MSG version because it speaks to me a bit differently than other versions.
"No test or temptation that comes your way is beyond the course of what others have had to face. All you need to remember is that God will never let you down; he’ll never let you be pushed past your limit; he’ll always be there to help you come through it" 1 Corinthians 10:13 (MSG)
It says that God will never let us down. I think that this is the true gem in this version of the scripture. Yes, there is going to be temptation brought to us. Temptation was brought in the very beginning with Eve. Life will not be easy. The real test is trusting that God will always be there with us through whatever it is that we may be enduring. Even when we are falling, he is always there. Job fell and fell hard. He lost everything besides his wife. He felt like he was helpless, and he was moping. Like complaining and being very Hamlet-esque (Hamlet from Shakespeare). He basically wished he had never been born.
“Why didn’t I die when I was born? Why didn’t I die as I came out of my mother’s body? 12 Why was I placed on her knees? Why did her breasts give me milk? 13 If all of that hadn’t happened, I would be lying down in peace. I’d be asleep and at rest in the grave" Job 3:11-13 (NIV)
We all get this way sometimes. If we would have known life was going to be this hard, we would have never decided to be this ambitious or be this courageous. We just would have stayed in our box to prevent our fall from every happening. We pull a Job 3:20 and ask "Why should those who suffer ever be born?" But it’s going to happen whether we like it or not. We are going to fail, and we are going to suffer. Even Jesus suffered.
I think the real question in the fall is who will you trust in?? Will you trust in yourself to get you out or are you going to allow God to get you out?? I know for me I barely trust myself to remember someone’s birthday. So, when it feels like I’m falling I’m working harder to give it all to God. I’m not going to rely on myself to figure it out because let’s be honest, everything that happens to us or around us is not fully comprehensible. But the same goes for God. All of his actions will not be comprehensible. We just need to allow ourselves to believe that even when we are falling, God is still watching over us. He might just let us fall in order to see if we are going to believe that he will never let us down.